The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

 

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July 11 Friday, still 36 days - between Noah's Shore at the Dead Sea and Arad
re-edited on July 11, 2013

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The FOCUS of MY INTENTION TODAY

Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may!
 15:50
I desire to integrate the "adventure" with Lior Oren, its great joys and its physical hardships...
I desire to pass smoothly from so much interacting since June 23 into my castle's al-one-ness.
I desire for Lior to realize all the decisions she arrived at with using me as her sounding-board.
I desire, that my suffering starchildren will complete their learning within the next year or so,
and then "come out of the closet" and do what they came for - to co-create Heaven-on-Earth.
I desire that the Druze community in Israel, about which I saw a doc during lunch, will become "parental".

7th episode of "Good Intentions", on Wednesdays
The day of peace will come. Clara KHouri & Orna Pitussi
image of the day: 24 hours with Lior Oren
and closeups to her present predicament.
My task: being a clear sounding-board
for her fine-tuned awareness

hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

16:10
My Body, my Partner, my God
I give thanks to your stamina:
having lived through this hardly bearable night
- moving every 5 minutes on the average from side to side,
always readjusting yourself again to my part of the sleeping-bag
and to the stony underground and to the wafts of wind and heat ,
- forced to listen to that inconsiderate group of hikers from 2-3 AM
as well as to the roaring, not soothing waves hitting the shore 2 m from us.
I give thanks to you for not succumbing to the unbearable heat and effort,
when we had to drag along for 3 km without anybody picking us up.



I'm grate-full that our loud intending for "an airconditioned spacious car,
with a driver with whom conversation would be pleasant" was answered-
in an indirect, but finally much better way than we had asked for (see below)

I'm grate-full for having once again experienced the glorious beauty
of "my" Salt Sea towards and after sunset , beneath the starry sky,
with a brilliant "Tzaedeq" (Jupiter) giving inspiration to our healing work.
And mostly: I am grate-full for Lior's existence on the planet and in my life!

I had finally fallen asleep around 4 AM - on my sleeping back next to Lior,
Therefore - when I woke up with the first light - I couldn't stay awake,
though I so much wanted to savor this most splendid hour at the Salt Sea.
Lior had slept through all the night and was still asleep close to sunrise.

 

 




The heat at 8 AM had become unbearable,
so we walked around the beach to the peninsula ,
to find a bit of shade still left there in a corner on the north-eastern edge.

 

 

 

This edge of the peninsula, where we found refuge from the burning sun, was still in the shade at 9 AM, when Lior too decided,
that she had exhausted the situation. I had said that before, but had added - and this is a sign for the truth in our relationship -
that I even more wanted to be with her, as long as I could serve her as her sounding-board,
and that - since we were not "friends", not "equal", but related like mother-daughter, or grandmother-grandchild,
she should accept my desire, despite my wish to leave.
[On August 2, 2011, Lior mentioned our togetherness at the Salt Sea (see Heaven-to-Earth-2, August 2, 2011),
and I, therefore, re-read this page. But the last three lines in this passage I don't understand.]

 

 

Until May 2006 - exactly the month when we last met - there was this wondrous salt-sculpture. which I called "The Bereaved Mother"

There are numerous images of the Dead Sea in the library of Noah's Shore

since then it has melted into the sea, gone forever


My pond, too, is gone, but some meters further down, further north, the hot sulphur spring is bubbling from many exits

 
 
 
 

We are leaving the Dead Sea! When will one of us or both of us come here again?????
[Both of us came back very soon, together with my granddaughter Rotem, on Dec. 25, 2008]
  
 


This time we didn't climb up the steep path, but walked along the army-trail,
and even these 25 minutes were already too much, at least for me.
"It was a mistake", I said, "we should have climbed up the steep, but shorter path".
I wailed and sighed and sounded and encouraged Lior to do the same,
even more so, when we reached the road and nobody picked us up.
We didn't even have hats with us and spread clothes on our heads.
"You must sound! Lior", I screamed. "maybe this is the reason we are suffering:
you still haven't practised sounding enough!"
So she wailed and sounded while walking next to me or behind me.
Once I turned around with the open camera:
"I want to document this suffering"
She faced me and said: "It's not soooo terrible, Rachel!"
I was stunned.
"Do you know, that this is the first time, someone else takes over?
So far it has always been me who took the role of encouraging others in a difficult situation!"

We had already passed the junction of Nachal David, the Youth Hostel and the Fieldschool,
from which we could have taken a bus, if there would have come one.

Then - thanks 'God' - an Arab driver from somewhere near Jerusalem with a very old car,
picked us up, no airconditioning, but he allowed to open the windows,
and what was best: he convinced us to stay in a hotel lobby and wait for a bus!

 

We entered a hotel - I was too exhausted to even see, which one of the many that are there -
we were afraid, they wouldn't let us in, especially not Lior in the ragged shorts, she had taken from me.
But Lior was self-confident and headed towards a toilet.
And though we ran through an incredible maze of floors and corridors until we found one,
it was worthwhile, for there - again thanks to Lior's courage - we took off our clothes
and flushed our salted, sweated bodies with the help of water from the taps as well as we could.
Since we would have to pay for the bus, Lior now did put on her uniform.
My spirits returned and we made some pretty pictures together.

   
   


The last image:
a sculpture in the lobby, which reminded me of the salt stalacmites and stalactites we had watched in our morning corner
Then we entered the bus to Arad - where I got off, exactly after 24 hours and 20 minutes of our togetherness -
while Lior continued to Beersheva, where she intended to meet with her family at her grandmother's.




On August 2, 2011,
Lior – during a phone-call – mentioned her quantum-leap after our night at the SaltSea in July 2008,
I , therefore, sent her the link to this documentation. What followed , was an exchange in writing.

  

 

In the evening : 3 dramas in a row
The Summer of Avia - into which I zapped into in the middle
"Good Intentions"
and "be-tippul"

The Summer of Avia- Isral 1988, with Gila Almagor (scenario and actress)
A story based on Gila Almagor's autobiographical book.
The summer of AviyaThe story of one summer in the life of a girl at the start of Israel's history as a country. This girl is Aviya--10 years old, the daughter of a Holocaust survivor and former partisan--a woman on the edge of sanity. As the story goes on, her mother's situation worsens, Aviya continues to dream of her father, whom she's never seen. Her mother is institutionalized and Aviya is left alone--a girl who had to grow up all at once--in one summer.
The 10 year old Avia looked much like the 11 year old Lior

Editorial Reviews
A young girl and her mother both carry the scars of their experiences during the holocaust in this drama from Israel. In 1951, Aviya (Kaipo Cohen) is a ten-year-old girl being raised by her single mother, Henya (Gila Almagor), in a small village in Israel. Henya is a survivor of a Nazi concentration camp, and has come out of the experience considerably worse for wear; she's haunted by the memories of her past, and has become emotionally unstable. Circumstances for her and her daughter are hardly improved by the poverty of the newly wounded state of Israel, and their own difficult economic circumstances. Aviya, meanwhile, is obsessed with finding her missing father, and wonders if he might be the man who has just moved into their village. Henya, however, knows better, and knows why Aviya's father is never coming back to them. The Summer of Aviya was based on a novel by Gila Almagor, who also plays Henya; a sequel, Under the Domim Tree, was released in 1995















BeTIPPUL II,1
See more on July 13

 

 

Nourishment from Others

From puzzle piece 55 Heaven on Earth
From the Conclusion at the end of the last book of the Right Use of Will series

"We all like to feel
that We have someplace to go
where We are received
with love and without judgment;
when that is real,
that is a place that really feels good...

"You must take all of yourself to healing,
...
and there is no place for you to really do it like Earth.

"If you have a body,
then that is what you have wanted to have for a long time,
that is what you need to have
and that is what you shall have.

....
"The Light of My love is all Four Parts,
Spirit, Will, Heart and Body,
moving together in the true understanding and balance
that is My Love...

...

"... to receive Me in the Heart ...
is ... soft, loving and deliciously wonderful.
It is the Will's colors rising to meet me
in the gentle pastels of a purple dawn,
gentle breezes stirring in a beautiful, blue sky,
morning like sunlight coming down through the green trees
and subsiding with Me
into the gentle golden evenings of the Will's deep colors
when We need to rest;


"the Moon rising,
first golden and then white,
in the stars sprinkled, indigo night
and subsiding into the excitement of another pastel morning,
colorfully rising, stirring you to return from your dreams,
as you are nestled in the arms of romantic heart,
to find them real

"and dance again with the Sun
in the warm encouragement and rich abundance
of a nurturing and colorful Earth
that lets you know
life is good and you can live it.
There is music and excitement in the air!
Can you hear and feel it yet?

And now, I would like to close with Amen, to that!

AMEN


 

song of the day

The day is near, which is neither day nor night...

 

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K.I.S.S. - L O G    2 0 0 8




2013



 

 From this day, July 11, 2013 onward - - - - till August 27
- before and after my 75th birthday on August 15, 2013
I was being jolted into re-understanding my vocation:
All my former goals since the ages of 7, 13, 27, 50, 67,
were meant to create training-grounds for becoming:

a   pioneer   of    Evolution    in    learning-how-to-feel.














It is fitting, that I could squirm myself towards this understanding not in a linear way.
And so now - on Yom-Kippur 2013 - on the 17th FELT day of the next 15 FELT years,
  I want to collect, harvest and savor the fruits as they ripened - as - insights-in-stages,
just like the fruits of my pomegranate-tree have been ripening since July 11 till now!

K.i.s.s.-log 2008-07-11
This spring-flower (kova' nazir/monk's cress) photographed by me in 2003, decided to blossom (in a planter) now, in Arad, in August-Sept. 2013!!!







July 11-Sept. 17, 2013
my progression from the concept of "vicariousness" to the concept of "pioneership"
My Book>German&Hebrew Digests: the central concept of "SIN" has to be transmuted.

 


 The Society for Nature advises people on summer-holiday "to go out into nature
and accumulate experiences, memories and moments of fun together"
But for me there is no longer a need to do so, not together and not alone- not at all.
My limping tells me, that even my delight of walking into the desert - is not for Now!
For "Training Body, Feelings and Thinking" it is enough to carry my paining body
twice a day to the pool and back, and -on the way - tending my "Grave of Grace",
adding water, soil and those excessive plants from my garden that grow without roots,
being in contact with my landlords [garden! receiving food leftovers]and my neighbors,
traveling to the Salt-Sea once a week and to one of my families about once a month.
How I live my life vicariously, with my hip's joint which hurts so much

(1)
Isn't the unintended name of my e-mail and local site "joy"?
Am I not meant to BE BODY enjoying every moment of awareness ?
Isn't BEING I N JOY the true way to redeem Creation?
And isn't it BODY who can BE IN JOY always,
without denying any contrary feeling or sensation?

(2)


(3)
The circumstances I've created for my life and the lives of my 16 actors
are as good as can be imagined at this time
I've limited my actions and interactions and even the need to function in my daily life
to the minimum
This gives me the chance not only to cope with what still comes up as tiny dramas
like with the endlessly barking dog of a new neighbor yesterday,
but it allows me plenty of time to fulfill my task
which is to - vicariously - feel> move>womb>understand every nano feeling
that others are not yet capable of feeling> moving>wombing>understanding,
and in the frame of this - also vicariously - to heal the World's Lost Will
5 hours later on July 11, 2013
As if I had lied or denied , when claiming,
that there are no more than "tiny" dramas in my life,
it so happened, that in the middle of the day(!) I opened a recorded TV program.
If the info had said, that it was a thriller, I wouldn't have recorded or opened it.
But when I saw, that it was about sexual abuse - of school-girls by a teacher-
and about the cover-over by an entire village, even at the end of the movie!!!
I felt, I was meant to watch it
and let the ever seething pain concerning my own family intensify again.
Part of the movie I saw before I went to the pool and part of it after it.
This gave me the time-space to move my pain and shame,
as expressed in one of my recent songs (2013 May):
"Come and redeem us from sexual pain and shame,
from all this guilt that keeps earth and sky in chains..."
When I sat there - after the movie - in grief and sorrow,
I suddenly had an understanding:

"Didn't you - as a title for the composition above - write :
'How I live my life vicariously'?
You have come such a long way - a way of some 65 years - to understand,
that though the Christian concept of "vicariously suffering and dying for our sins"
is such a horrid error,
there is a truth hidden in that word "vicariously".

Your task is to exemplify and pioneer the evolution of the Feeling!
Your task is - not to suffer - but to FEEL>VIBRATE>WOMB>UNDERSTAND vicariously!
This is the application of
your taking responsibility for both: human perpetration as human self-victimization.

You do so, by feeling>moving>wombing>understanding not only the big issues or dramas,
but much more often, more intensely, the "small" feelings which they never even look for.

Today a new piece of awareness came up:
The "drama" in your family - the retreat of your daughter from you since ten years -
is not something personal, not on her side and not on your side.
You have come to understand, that sexual denial and repression is, as the idiom says,
the "crux" of the matter - i.e. it is literally the "cross" of humankind.
But how would you be able to genuinely take upon yourself the suffering of both
"those who are acting out and hate themselves
and who feel victims all their lives" as your prayer-song says [2013 May],
if you would not train yourself first and second and third
in feeling>vibrating>wombing>understand millions of 'nano-feelings'!"

You re-read exactly this morning, what you quoted 5 years ago:

In the 2008 interview with Deity, the channeling of 10 years is epitomized in~
"You can be responsible only when you decide to take responsibility.
And   you   can  heal  only what you  take   responsibility   to   heal.
Otherwise, the healing of these ancient imprints is left to someone else.

"....Your wholeness and your healing are yours for the having,
and you can have them when you take full and loving responsibility
for all of the evil and perpetration in Creation~~~
as well as for all of the goodness and beauty. ...

"You have all of the parts of Deity within you,
and if you choose,
you may identify as any of these parts,
or as all of Deity combined~~~
the whole Universe and its Creators.
Of course you must first leave behind
the erroneous old beliefs from your conditioning
and the disempowering self-hatred they have engendered. "

So, what you have to do, is to truly "live your life vicariously l"
A song: Prayer to "God"

Today the transparency of sexual perpetration
and victimhood is expanding.
But nobody, including me, understands,
what it really is and how it can heal.
A famous opera song offered itself as a frame
for this disastrous distress.
What opera? I don't know.
The tune runs in my brain,- without words.
Thus I hope
- that even without conscious intention -
the prayer does its work!


Come and redeem us
from sexual shame and pains
from all this guilt that
keeps earth and sky in chains

Those who are tortured
by vexing lust
or who deny what they dream

Bring understanding what makes this happen
what makes us do or suffer
and bring us healing

***

Come and redeem us
from sexual shame and pains
from all this guilt that
keeps earth and sky in chains

Those who are acting out
and hate themselves
or who feel victims all their lives

Bring understanding
what makes this happen
what makes us do or suffer
and bring us healing

***

Bring uns Erkenntnis
[bring us knowing]
bring uns Verstaendnis [understanding]
bring uns Befreiung [liberation]
bring uns Verzeihung [forgiveness]

Verwandle diese Scham
[German: transform this shame]
hamir aet ha-asham
[Hebrew: transform this guilt]
heil', heile, refa'enu, El
[German + Hebrew: heal, heal , heal-us, God]

Bring understanding
what makes this happen
what makes us do or suffer
and bring us healing

First inserted on May2, 2013,
see now - on May 9, 2013 + the links mentioned there

July 14, 2013:
I was and am so shattered by this understanding of my task as "vicariously feeling>vibrating>wombing>understanding",
that I stopped re-studying the K.i.s.s.-log pages of 2008, and instead immersed myself in my book, which prophesied it all,
and I suddenly grasp the 2 words : fuehlen-verfehlen as a pun, if not a linguistic connection:
Isaiah 53 - see my song
"SEIN Knecht" - "verFehlungen":
Was ich verfehle, ist mein Fuehlen,
und wenn ich verfehle zu fuehlen,
dann passieren 3 Dinge:
- ich bin ohne mein guidance-system
und in Gefahr, mir Umstaende zu schaffen,
die mich zum Opfer machen [das nannten die Alten "Suende und Strafe"]
- ich verdraenge oder verleugne was ich fuehlen und bewegen sollte,
und die Folge ist entweder Gewalt nach aussen oder Gewalt nach innen- Krebs.
- ich kann den Augenblick und mein Leben/Lieben nicht geniessen,
ich verfehle mein Leben und sterbe
(I just came across the little book in my library: "Der Tor und der Tod",
see in puzzle-piece 19b, what happened to this book on July 14, 2013!])

July 15, 2013:

I feel at peace now - after yet another song which "says it all"
- has been recorded on my digital recorder.
It was a most conscious cooperation with "those beyond"
and took me 4 days,
after I had been urged to run
and record the last part of a piece of simple music,
which I heard, when I had - a rare chance while I was cooking -
opened the 3SAT Weather- for- Alpine- Tourists -program
with its ongoing Alpine music.
I like this genre, but usually it's not in my repertoire for creating songs..

When I analyzed what I had recorded, I found it strangely structured:
3 lines are the same except for the ending of each one
and then again - 4 lines are the same except for the ending of each one.

I wondered, how I would fit "all I wanted to say" into this frame,
and found myself highly surprised, when I saw,
that I was inspired by just two lines of lyrics,
except for the ending, which is different in each of the 3 + 4 lines!
And when I was just moving from the keyboard,
with the help of which I made the last
- though still temporary - recording of my singing,
to the e-mails on my computer,
I saw 2 posts from Ra'ayah, my daughter-in-love, on Facebook.
In addition to working as a midwife,
she once volunteered in a phone-service for sexually abused persons.

A sign of this evolving planet, is, as I must have said before,
that what has been silenced, repressed and denied,
sexual guilt and shame,
is coming more and more into the open!

This is the song:
[and I'm more sorry than concerning other songs,
that I'm no longer 'able' to insert the tune here]


Ich spuere, fuehle, weine, schrei - an eurer Statt!
Ich spuere, fuehle, weine, schrei - werd' nimmer matt!
Ich spuere, fuehle, weine, schrei - das ist meine Tat.

Bis ihr vereinen werd't - Fuehlen~Denken im Herz
Bis ihr vereinen werdet - Fuehlen~Denken im Geist
Bis ihr vereinen werd't - Fuehlen~Denken im Leib,
Bis ihr vereinen werdet - Fuehlen~Denken in Eins.

See how I was forced to stand the test of "feeling~vibrating~wombing~understanding vicariously"
concerning Abie Natan and my being triggered by the unrecognized shadow of "peace-people"

 

 From this day, July 11, 2013 onward - - - - till August 27
- before and after my 75th birthday on August 15, 2013
I was being jolted into re-understanding my vocation:
All my former goals since the ages of 7, 13, 27, 50, 67,
were meant to create training-grounds for becoming:

a   pioneer   of    Evolution    in    learning-how-to-feel.














It is fitting, that I could squirm myself towards this understanding not in a linear way.
And so now - on Yom-Kippur 2013 - on the 17th FELT day of the next 15 FELT years,
  I want to collect, harvest and savor the fruits as they ripened - as - insights-in-stages,
just like the fruits of my pomegranate-tree have been ripening since July 11 till now!

K.i.s.s.-log 2008-07-11
This spring-flower (kova' nazir/monk's cress) photographed by me in 2003, decided to blossom (in a planter) now, in Arad, in August-Sept. 2013!!!