The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S. - as stated 12 years ago - was and is   to help me and my potential P E E R s  "to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness, and - by extension - all of CREATion!" Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013 and Overview of its main libraries [If you look for a word on this page, click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"] I focus my experiencing and awareness on being "a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel": I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb' pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness, so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve, and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!! "I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"     K.I.S.S. - L O G    2 0 0 8/2012 Keep It Simple Sweetheart Scroll down to my very last sculpture on Healing-k.i.s.s. - after almost 11 years   1 2 3 4 5 6 7 Schubert's Missa Solemnis 1 2 3 How Learn And I The Train   Heal Conditions In Myself For Creating Into Heaven Those Whole On Conditions Self-acceptance Earth Daily sanctus-qadosh sanctus-holy sanctus-heilig   Intro to k.i.s.s.-l o g + all dates ~ Library of 7 years ~ HOME ~ contact ~ SEARCH ( of Latin characters only!)                  my eldest granddaughter's video-gallery   April 7/ NISAN 2, Monday, still 133 days - at Shoham Parting from my obsession to complete this page--- on April 11 back to past ~~~~~ forward to future When I shall refer to "Shoham" from now on, I shall link to this page, from where also some of the many other Shoham pages can be reached. April 7, 2012 - first day of Pesach: My son Immanuel "settled" at Shoham 3 times, [in 4 different flats]. just like the precious stone was attached to the High Priest's garment thrice Shoham on Yom-Kippur, Sept. 2007 Exploring&Creating begets Full-Fill-ment, + links to 2007 library "Mika at Shoham" More about Shoham and the neighboring Bareqet + maps "Shoham" the symbol: If the consonants of this Hebrew term are turned around, I see "ha-shem", "the Name", which is an ingenious solution for the problem of pronouncing the unpronouncable YHWH, which is not a noun, but a verb: he, it, happened, happens, will happen. The numerical value of sh-h-m is 12 or 1+2 = 3, and even if - as the municipality of Shoham does - the letter vav with its vowel value O is added, the numerical value is 7, which - in my experience - symbolizes the wholeness of creation. Shoham is a gem, a precious stone, which was worn by the High Priest in a triple manner: a shoham on each shoulder of his 'ephod' and a shoham in the center of the last row of the hoshen, the breast-plate, with the 12 gems, which symbolized the 12 tribes of Israel, i.e. the wholeness of Israel. Thus the highpriest, dressed in the ephod and the hoshen , was "overlaid" by a triangle of shoham   shoham shoham As to the identity of the shoham, there are so many different "identifications", that one should best let go of the "scientific" exploration and stick to the symbolic meaning     MY INTENTION and PLAN for TODAY Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may! 8:40 I desire to FOCUS my bubbling, foaming thinking about two seemingly different "issues"! (1) about another condition for 'Heaven-on-Earth', which may be perhaps called 'excitement', (2) about Godchannel's condition of "wholeness" for transiting from 4 to 5 dimensional reality. After 5 PM I desire to balance the tension in the house,which may arise because of the deadline of E.'s newspaper image of the day I met this sad child on my way from the pool to the bus-station in Arad               hodayot [thanksgivings] for today 8:54 My Body, my Partner, my God I give thanks to you for balancing our interior temperature, however crazy this season's changes between cold and hot may be. The Ethiopian child in my town - Arad: Seeing suffering in other people, in the world , I always find it difficult to thank for the "good fortune", which is "granted" to myself, to my family, and especially to Mika, who'll star on today's page again. It always pains me, for instance, when after a collective disaster a person who survived thanks "God" for having been "saved". What about the other people? did God want them to die?         Finetuning to my Present Having left the sight of the sad child in Arad "behind me", I traveled with the bus to Beersheva, from where I walked over to the train-station - this time the doors were open and the train did wait in order to go north. I still had a spare ticket, but wanting to be ready for future journeys, I went to the counter and demanded "two tickets Beersheva-Airport and one ticket Airport-Lehavim". But then, when after the station "Lod" I awaited the station "Ben Gurion Airport", the train rolled on and on, until the announcement came: "Next station - Tel-Aviv-Haganah". Irritated I descended and inquired. The answer: "Oh! the train from and to Beersheva will no longer go through the Airport, but if you hurry you'll catch the train to Modi'in, which stops at the Airport." I hurried, caught the train - southward bound - reached the Airport in 8 minutes, took a taxi, since E. couldn't fetch me and needed my help with Mika urgently. The driver was a woman and she gave me the chance to express my anger and concern about this new arrangement, which would make my commuting between Arad and Shoham even more cumbersome, also more expensive ~~~ When I finally relaxed, I thought: 'When I started my assignment in my family at Shoham - it was Dec. 29,2006. It turned out - to my delight - that 2 days (!) later, from January 1, 2007, the train from Beersheva would stop at the Airport trainstation, which would make my journey much more convenient. This arrangement lasted for 16 months, and I am grateful for that. But is there a meaning in this changing-back into inconvenience? April 7, 2012, Pesach -Though I made my "Exodus" from that assignment, I'll visit Shoham for 2 Pesach days and since - strangely - I cannot figure out the times of the direct bus to Tel-Aviv, I'll travel to Beersheva, honor the train and ask my family to fetch me from Lod. A scupture in a Shoham Park : symbolic for my double home     In the "Commercial Center" of a new (1993) town in Israel: Shoham While approaching Shoham in the taxi, I fixed with E. that we would meet outside the Commercial Center, which is close to her office. Mika ran towards me with joy, and E. took care, without me having asked for it, that I could go to the toilet and then get something to drink, "and then you two go to the playground." I hate malls and commercial centers, and had once asked E. to not demand from me to spend time there, especially not with Mika. So she only bought us a milk-shake and an ice-cream for Mika, we sat at a table while her boss, Ilan, joined us, and then we parted, - a little opposition on Mika's part, but soon she flowed with me into the direction of the huge and pretty park with its playground behind the center (when we finally reached it, much later, it was too dark to photograph there...). For some reason I asked her: "Where do you want to go!" and understanding that she had the choice, she said vehemently: "not there", and turned back into the Center. And strangely enough - this time I was open to enjoy an aspect of 'Heaven-on-Earth' in the Commercial Center of Shoham! The ideal architecture allows people and children, even dogs, to stroll around, rove around, play around freely and safely. And I again - as on Yom Kippur in Shoham - remembered a biblical prophecy which always moves me to tears, even now while quoting it again: [later that year a tune added itself to the prophecy] This is what YHWH tzeva'ot says: "Once again men and women of ripe old age will sit in the streets of Jerusalem, each with his cane in hand for the plenty of days. And the city streets will be filled with boys and girls playing in its streets." This is what YHWH tzeva'ot says: "It may seem marvelous to the remnant of this people in those days, but will it seem marvelous to me?" declares YHWH tzeva'ot [Zecharia 8:4-6, I tried to correct the translation. As to the question-mark - it's not in the original, but a question may indeed by intended here] The prophecy concerns "Jerusalem", as the city of cities. But the name SHOHAM with its incredibly symbolic meaning may suit the prophecy even better than the present war-torn Jerusalem. Here is part of the research on "Shoham", which I did in July 2006 and again in December 2006, facing my new "destiny" in this town.     "Shoham is a young town, founded in 1993 with 18,500 residents, almost half under the age of 19. This age distribution explains the emphasis the local council puts on education, culture and sports, with more than 50 percent of the budget dedicated to these issues.. "Shoham is located close to Israel’s main airport, which is halfway between Tel-Aviv and Jerusalem, the two largest, major cities of the country. "The development of the town has constantly put emphasis on the environment and related issues. The town includes both private homes and apartment buildings. It is the council’s policy to maintain the appearance of Shoham as an environmental friendly town. In Shoham there are 250 dunam of green parks and gardens, designed with a unique system for reducing water -use. .... "More than 6,000 pupils and children learn in 5 elementary schools, one junior high school and one high school in Shoham. Aproximentally, 40 day-care centers and kindergartens operate for the younger children. The educational system includes unique programs, in various fields, such as: Environment, Leadership & Politics, and Biotechnology... .. About the choice of the name Shoham, as a completion of the names of 3 old villages, Bareket, [see April 10], Nofech and Ahlamah [now called Bet-Arif] also precious stones in the "Hoshen" of the ancient High Priest On July 30, 2006, I studied the option of Shoham. While E. and Mika were still in the hospital shelter in bombarded Naharia. Immanuel, now a pilot at El-Al for already 2 years, was finally searching for a place near the airport and move there - from the Galilee - with his wife and daughter, Shoham was the best option, Modi'in a secondary one. I did research on Shoham, in which - probably not by chance - I had lived already twice, at first with Immanuel, who had just moved there after his divorce in 1999, to be close to his children at Modi'in, but not too close to their mother, and then - after I had to leave my "Pond of Blessing" at the Dead Sea - again with Immanuel, except that now Efrat had moved in with him. Pondering "Shoham" in this diary entry, I reach the conclusion, that I had done my part in healing the blood-soaked hill of ancient Modi'in, and that from now on (which eventually came to happen only by the end of 2006) I would commute between the old-new town Arad, with no record of bloodshed, and the very young town Shoham, which hopefully was not erected on confiscated land.   [Wanting to be empty-handed with Mika, I left my camera with the other luggage in E's car, and only my cellphone-camera hang around my neck, but the photos are good nonetheless.] Mika discovers ants in the Commercial Center, and has no problem lying on her belly, while a man sits in the background, busy on his phone. These ants are bigger than the ones we watched last week at the entry of our house, and Mika is fascinated.   Suddenly Mika lifts her eyes from the ants and spots a peer from her kindergarden. "Galli", she exclaims, runs to her and hugs her warmly. I wasn't fast enough with my camera... Galli's mother had a strip with stickers and the more she handed to Mika, the more Mika wanted to stick on her chest. I like the composition with the mother , the two girls and a young woman sitting on the wall behind them, her hands with her phone on her ear, such a familiar sight in these days...     Galli is 8 months younger than Mika, but they had no problem in communicating, though Mika's ability to speak has lately developed rapidly.   Mika - and her grandma - enjoy the spaces as well as the many low walls in the compound of the Commercial Center   Mika leaned over the wall and exclaimed: "a snail, a snail!" It took me some time to detect the tiny creature with my own eyes. When I did, I lifted it carefully and placed it on a leaf , so the girls could explore and enjoy it. Mika wanted it to crawl on her body, but had to learn, that the snail was afraid and hid in its house.     pay attention to the background!   Mika and Galli walk towards a group of other kids. Isn't this scene depicting Zecharia's vision? Except that in this new town, (unlike in Arad...) there don't seem to be many old people "with canes in their hands". What Zecharia couldn't imagine, was that "in those days" a grandmother of seventy would run around with her tenth grandchild as if she was a child herself.... Galli has left now, but Mika enjoys watching children, though she doesn't know them. When editing the photo, I was annoyed by the head-cut man in uniform , but this composition might be symbolic...   Again some iron bars to climb on! In the background this time: a Steimatzki Bookstore (exists in every big or small city in Israel); a young man talking on the phone seems to pass by, while a young woman, with a phone in her hand, seems to walk in. It's becoming darker, and Mika longs for Imma. One last look to the sky which forecasts the weather change, - the light between the clouds matched by the lit-up high lanters - and we leave the Center in the direction of Imma's office, but when we encounter the big park with the playground, Mika gets excited again and wants to explore and play there. By then it has become too dark to photograph...   song of the day the song which I modified a bit and learnt by heart, when I drove from Arad to Shoham for the first time on Dec. 29, 2006 Being intimate with "God"....   back to past ~~~~~ forward to future Intro to k.i.s.s.-l o g + all dates ~ Library of 7 years ~ HOME ~ contact ~ SEARCH ( of Latin characters only!)                  my eldest granddaughter's video-gallery whole&full-filled, never perfect&complete Keep It Simple Sweetheart K.I.S.S. - L O G    2 0 0 8

2012

Celebrate what people do towards the quantum-leap of evolution,
both - on the exterior level and on the level of feelings and beliefs.

Michelangelo and Mika (Sept. 2007 in Arad on the mattrasses and covers, which I've now exchanged.
Last night, when I came to Pni-el - so we would spend Pesach Eve together, Boris showed me a picture:
"I want you to have it - you can hang it on your veranda".
I said harshly: "No! That's not the genuine painting! How come that the Creator's hand is lower than the hand of the Created".
But when I looked for images on the Internet, I had to understand, that it is just that what Michelangelo wanted to paint!

The new high-hard mattresses, which Ya'acov and I had planned together,
and which he ordered (custom-made) and transported here four days ago.

On this Shabbat, which is also the first day of Pesach,
I want to study and excerpt from 3 Godchannel files,
what is relevant for me at this time:

April 7, Still "in the oven": Phrasing the "melt-down" of my money-pattern/trauma.
It will continue to be the focus of my "Exodus from Egypt" - during the Pesach week.
April 15, 2012:
No! an "Exodus" much more drastic had to be completed today!

10 Hebrew lines daily between Ya-Ra towards the doomed-to fail shemshem.org 2012_04_07- 2013_03_24DELICIOUS      DELETION

April 11-15, 2012

This confusion was one of a series of other - technical - confusions the next day,
while I prepared for traveling to Shoham, till I finally did, after all, arrive there.
These confusions were one of the "signs from Heaven", that the time has come.
The time for -definitely~finally~totally - part from sculpting on Healing-K.i.s.s.
which for 10 years served the purpose of healing, exploring, creating MYSELF.

My Exodus from having healed, explored, created for myself only ~ to vibrating "fullness" to whoever is with me,
and, if there is a chance, creating a situation where others can actually feel fullness even if just for a few hours
(see the Cain-song: zammeen hizdamnut bah yilmad al kocho ve-aerko - it's really nothing new in my life, but!)

I had set up Healing-K.i.s.s. in June 2001 -
in order to heal, learn and create together! with "potential peers"

[see the top of the first pages sculpted in 2001].
I may have contributed a lot to "Evolution" by my truly superhuman endeavor,
but there was no healing together, no exploring together, no creating together.
My husband once left me a note on my desk:
"Don't do everything yourself, leave space for others to do".
And during a Seder-Pesach, only within the family, including Dita and Joel,
he suddenly burst into tears - literally out of the blue - and then explained;
"Now you have taken from me even the last thing I did in this family!"
The last thing was, that I - not being content with his version of the Hag(g)adah -
composed and edited my own version, based on all I had learnt during my studies.
The children took part in this creation by illustrations and by singing some parts.
But I couldn't make Rafael feel inspired to co-create with me.

This in-credible torture of my life,
of getting the feedback again and again and finally feeling it in a paranoid way,
that "I am not giving space to others in my healing-exploring-creating" -
must have an end now.

On my way back to Arad from Shoham and Tel-Aviv 58 hours later,
after intense experiences, which~~~ screamed for being "sculpted",
I pleaded with ....
that this time I may succeed in doing my lekhi-lakh from my sculpting.
How often have I decided this! How often have I tried this!
Yet I always slipped back into creating
- creating alone, and - as it seems - creating for myself only.

"Now I shall no longer fight,
I'll rest from my efforts in YOUR might."


Not a single sculpture will be added to "Healing-k.i.s.s." after this last one.
Neither about what I experience, feel, think, remember,
nor about "Nourishment from Others", except for graphical corrections.
If I come across something nourishing, I'll record it on my ditigal recorder,
and rehearse it , like the 500 songs of SongGame, on my way to the pool,
but when I'll get a feeling, that I "got" it, I'll delete it.

Nor shall I take photos as far as I can help it, - even photos of my family.
I'm proud, that after these 2 1/2 days my camera returned unused,
though there was so much to be documented!

What I want to celebrate, - good news via Internet or TV -
I'll do so by "vibrating my heart's desire" to those people,
except if an item fits one that's already on Healing-K.i.s.s.
In this case, I'll note the link, but not excerpt the content.

Modifications of songs will appear on the relevant Song pages,
 but new songs will have to wait until shemshem.org will work.


New documents, like correspondences, will have to be saved in the Computer of the Universe,
just like my experiences, my interactions, my feeling and thinking, my healing and evolving.
Except when they are directly enriching the exploration of the theme of shemshem.org:
ShaMayiM bli SHi'aMuM

As to "Driving Backward" - one of the Four Steps to Wholeness
and the theme to which I dedicated the first of the 70 Puzzle-Pieces
I shall continue doing that constantly "on the inside".
Only what I've already copied [hundreds of documents...]
might be inserted on pages with less than 1300 KBs.
Old paper docs, like I read in the train yesterday,
will be studied one last time and then discarded.


The only additions to existing pages of Healing-K.i.s.s.
will be documents or photos, created by OTHERS,
which fit into already existing sculptures:
like the laudation of Immanuel
on the great event of the Exhibition "Transitions",
by and for Dita Liron, his stepsister's 60th birthday.

There will be no "thread" in linear time,
like this last piece in "k.i.s.s.-log" 2008/2012,
or like "Mika's Heaven on Earth" in SongGame.
If I want to find something in my treasure-box,
there is the beneficial "Search" of Healing-k.i.s.s.
And if any other person is meant to benefit from it,
s/he will be led to the right space at the right time!

I was not invited to any Pesach celebration this year,
and rightly so,
because it's not a celebration of the Exodus I need, but the Exodus, the lekh-lekha itself:
"Go out ~ from creating alone ~ just for yourself ~~~~~towards co-healing, and co-learning and co-creating!"
On my way to the pool, one of my "lekhi-lakh" songs changed - in order to express this:

And after having "gone out", where am I now?
This is expressed in a short song in 3 languages:

April 14 - in the 2 hours support from Boris and Dafna I only stressed that I am not to create at all.
I forgot to say, that I'm not to create alone, but make space from all my past suffering and creating
towards my most intense desire: to co-create.
I was led to SongGame 2007_02_08 , read ! what I phrased there on Rosh-Hashanah, Sept. 2010
and from there I was led to Maitreya's Message through Julia in Learn&Live - on August 25, 2012
Read my comment, which I added to a long excerpt of immense relevance on Rosh Hashanah 2012
"since the only motivation for your creation is joy and divine curiosity"

I know now, that lekhi-lakh means also to let go of my personal evolution
and to intend the evolution-together, Me and Ya and We both and All

also achtet mehr noch, als je zuvor auf das, was ihr denkt und fühlt.. Nehmt es in euer Herz und werdet euch über die Konsequenzen eures Handelns, Fühlens und Denkens bewusst, denn ihr seid nun wahrhaft eins. .... Die Reise des Einzelnen allein ist nun zu Ende. Und ihr reist gemeinsam. Das ändert nichts daran, dass jeder für sich- innerhalb dieses Menschenkörpers- in seinem Universum lebt und ihr aus eurem Zentrum heraus euer Sein gestaltet- doch ist nun alles auf das Miteinander, das Gemeinsame fokussiert. Denn der alleinige Aufstieg ist momentan nicht mehr möglich- außer innerlich- doch ankommen werdet ihr alle gemeinsam. So habt ihr entschieden.

I now look by chance at
zammên me-le-ut - for whomever is with you- summon full-fill-ment in the new song of 2012, today!
as
zammên hizdamnut - summon a chance for him to learn about his power in the Cain-song of 1984
and my eyes interpret "zammên" as "zusammen", which in German means "together"!
thank you, for it is true (see in the song mentioned above):
"ve-nakhkha hashem tamid"
"and YHWH is always guiding you"

I'll close this last sculpture on Healing-k.i.s.s. 2001-2012
with a letter Achinoam Nini [Noa] - see how often she appears on Healing-K.i.s.s.!
LOVE in a loveless place
Dear family and friends,
my friend, Alejandra Nash, sent me the following link of a project she is involved in.
http://www.creativevisions.org/2012/04/landfillharmonic/
[I sent the link to Boris and Dafna, because just the night before they had told me
about a spontaneous "concert" at Pni-el" with spontaneous guests and spontaneous instruments]
At first I thought: oh god, I just don't have time to watch 15 minutes of anything!
Then I found time (early morning, and all through the house, not a creature is stirring, only mom and her mouse J)
I watched , and slowly, tears filled my eyes.
This is so beautiful and inspiring, and it embodies every principle I hold true.
Give it your time, and if you can, consider giving it more.
I have already told Ale that I would be happy to give her my voice if she wants it...
Sending love and light to you all, hoping spring will make you sing…

AchiNoam

Let's dance together.
You are there and I am here.
Let's dance our distance away.
Please don't think of yourself as small or unworthy -
I want to dance with you -
do you hear Me?
It's Me, God is talking to you now.
The only quality I require to dance with Me
is your Desire to dance with Me.
Would you please, now?
May I?
Here we go~
Dance with Me~
Move love,
move~
GOD IS DANCING WITH YOU~
MOVE, FEEL

As I closed this final page on April 15, 2012, I asked Ya'acov to send me photos of their wedding in 1987: the dance of the bride, a dance-teacher, with her bridegroom in the wheelchair, which so much MOVED me and my children and everyone . Until he let his wife scan the photos, on May 9, 2012, it took several "pushs" from my side. While we struggle with the shemshem.org cooperation -between Rachel, Ya'acov and Daniel- the question, if "pushing" may be a necessary followup of an initiative, is part of our communication right now. 2013: I leave this photo here, because I myself appear on it.

2012_04_07- 2013_03_24DELICIOUS      DELETION

back to past 2008/2012~~~~~ forward to future 2008




2012-06-14
As to new sculptures of what experiences in my life I deem relevant for my vocation,
they finally - or so it seemed to me - moved towards a transformation:
a) they should be in Hebrew and disciplined in form to the utmost
b) they should focus on the conditions for "feeling full-filled"
c) they should be a dialog with my true peer, Ya'acov
- with the help of whom we imagine as a third partner: Daniel Golle
- and the hope, that more people would join the circle in time.
From April 11 till April 26 we conducted this dialog on Google-Docs,
hoping, that later, when "shemshem.org" would be ready,
Ya'acov would edit those posts and transfer them to the new site.
Except for Ya'acov's post on April 25, Memorial Day, this did not happen,
since we were and are dependent on Daniel's completion of the technical part.
A draft of what we desire can be seen on April 27, 2012.
But technically it is very poor, no fonts, no colors, no pictures.
There is the first post of Ya'acov on May 1, with a response from me on May 14,
but what is especially frustrating, is, that with the opening of the website
only the titles of the last 4 posts can be seen.
The others can be reached only by clicking: "former, former, former".

Of course there is purpose to this staggering in the appearance of shemshem.
None of the three partners is ripe for a true peership.
....................................

In the meantime I add experiences, which I really do not want to forget, to pages on Healing-K.i.s.s.
See the next sculpture inserted in K.i.s.s.-log - connected to a Shabbat with Immanuel and Mika at Arad.