From a tele-class: the Gap between Spirit and Will
Consciousness has used the mind as a place to escape from feeling
When we are actually feeling something,
the mind has had a program
to immediately stop thinking about it
rather than feeling it
The mind has been jumping in with questions like "what's this?" "oh, it's fear!"
and then I believe, I know something about it, but not so.
The mind is a fabulous instrument ,
however we have been mistaking our identity
as the mind, believing that's who we are.
we've been believing
that we are who we think we are
One participant asked about her habit
of   getting   up   t o   D O   something
whenever she's feeling uncomfortable,
Yes, moving into action rather than feeling
and many other automatic behaviors
have been ways to escape from feeling.
... the lack of wholeness of being is,
that half of us, consciousness,
has been trying to escape the other half of us, our sentient feeling self.

A critical letter concerning my report about our
Mobile PARTNERSHIP Workshop [" Sayeret Shutafut"[
in the Galilee 1978 , that influenced me deeply,
from Yuval (?), who belonged to a kibbutz in the south
and who also led such a "Sayeret" -in the Negev.
together with Ofra Lotan from Kibbutz Dvir,
whom I find mentioned in a quote from my 1979 diary,
[which shows a bit of the abyss in which I used to "live" ].

I've started to study Shelley Yates' story and message
already 3 months ago,
and decided - then - to share it with Rotem, my grand-daughter.

Rotem, now 14, and probably one of those "Indigo-Children",
which Shelley Yates
sees as those,
for whom we - who fire the grid - are only "blazing the trail",
is deeply concerned
about the pain in nature and the danger for the planet.

I hoped, I would find the way to win her over for the "Jump-Start".


To make the message more accessible to Rotem as well as to myself,
I graphically edited the English text of www.Firingthegrid.org,
[2013 "no longer found", but "firethegrid.com" is still available]
omitted, what was not relevant or not important enough,
and in order to not overwhelm the child,
sent the text in seven e-mail parcels, one every 3 or 4 days.

After the.second mailing
I asked her to confirm that she received my letters.
She confirmed this one time,
but she wrote bluntly,
that unlike me, her grandma,
she, Rotem, was not naive,
and would not believe that anything could save the World.

I admit, that I was hurt, but I tried to work it out on my own,
and only wrote, that I would relate to her response
after having sent the last parcel.
But in time I understood,
that this wouldn't be helpful, and that I had to wait.


It still hurts - July 13 -
though it's, of course, not Rotem who did anything to hurt me.
"A trigger comes to point out
a hole in my wholeness that now wants to heal"
And the hole, that is still not healed enough,
is the pain of a life-time, and maybe many life-times,
of not having been "received" as "Godchannel.com" puts it .

By the way, it's worthwhile to read again

A Letter 2000-08-16 from God
to Those Doing
the Healing Work

I keep pondering, if I should inform Rotem of my 9 pages..
But the lesson is - to learn to communicate telepathically,
and to wholly trust, that Rotem and who else is not relating,
will help "to save the World" in their right time,
and that this will also be "right time" for "the World".

Rotem and Tomer, two of my Indigo Grandchildren -
"by chance" as I see only now - in Indigo colored clothing
before the beginning of Rotem's Bat-Mitzva [for girls at the age of 12],
June 7, 2005.
The celebration took place at a place on the hills around Jerusalem,
which was connected with painful memories for me:
"Yad-Shmonah" - a small place, founded by Christians from Finland,
in memory of the 8 Jews,
whom the Finnish people could not save from the Nazis.
In 1986, when it was inhabited by Messianic Israeli Jews.
and I had just started to truly drive in "Abraham's Footsteps"
I wanted to park a while amidst that Messianic community...

Sunset! And Rotem sang her "Parasha", one she had freely chosen
following my recommendation: Mose's Pain and Hope: Numeri 11,
part of which I've put into music around the time of Rotem's birth

The Celebration of
Rotem's Coming-of-Age
-for that is
what once was meant by a Bar-Mitzvah
for a boy at the age of 13,
included a slideshow -
[here showing little Rotem
with her mother, my daughter,
and her father],

accompanied by the prophecy-song
"Rotem"
which had created itself in the desert,
in the year of Rotem's birth, 1993.
From today's perspective
the prophecy might soon be fulfilled...
To the left my son, to the right, myself, singing.

Rotem in my sculpture "The Four Girls"
in "Finetuning to the Present" - 2007_03_31

Godchannel.com>Truth and Reality Class III

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"One of the strongest advantages
in 'driving backward'

is this change of attitude,

from willy-nilly manifesting

based on false assumptions
of what you want ~

to careful consideration,
and even reverence
for what has already come into existence. "

Abraham (1997),
e-mail quote on July 20, 2011
You are the vibrational writers
of the script of your life,
and everyone else in the Universe
is playing the part
that you have assigned to them.

2004, e-mail quote on July 21, 2011
You are all perfect and expanding; you are all adored and worthy;
you are all here
having your exposure to experiences and doing the best that you can
from where you are.
You have not been sent here
in a test or trial;
you're here as creators
as part of an expanding Universe.




2003, quote on July 22, 2011
Who you are and what you know when you are born
is everything
that you need to know to thrive. You are born with a sense of self and a sense of
wanting self to feel good
and the mechanisms
to bring it about

I rarely remember a nightly dream, despite my desire.
Tonight, after I couldn't fall asleep for a long time
and when putting the night-lamp on again and again,
I came across the two treasures in the right frames.
Then I slept, only to wake up soon with this dream:

I was with my school-friend Ursel Merz and a child.
perhaps in England, where she lived till she died last year
We were to go somewhere together,
but for some reason I had to go back perhaps 60 m around the corner.
I left my backpack and my handbag including the cellphone with her.
When I returned , nobody was there and all my stuff gone.
Since Ursel had just moved to a new flat, where should I find her?
I had her phone-number on my phone, but there was no phone.
I walked along, over to the small town which crept up a hill.
I moved up, too, among some people, clinging to a woman.

We entered a big hall with her, where some festival was to take place.
2 women asked me to help with some things, but I was too troubled.
Finally I had an idea, and even inside the dream I wondered about it:
How come I'm guided so wondrously?

I placed myself in front of the rows of the gathering crowd and asked:
"Since you live in this town, does anyone know my friend Ursel Merz?
And if not, some of your friends and neighbors might know her!
So would you all do me a big, big favor and use your cellphone
and call at least one acquaintance and ask if they know my friend?"

That's where the dream ended, but I was so impressed with this idea,
that I hoped I would remember it until the morning and understand it.

And there it is - the dream in one piece, though without the desired ending.
Perhaps this is, what's important: to know the goal, to start off on the way,
and then trust, that I will reach whatever I need to reach at the next station.

A modern ending of the ancient "Minstrel-Boy":
"He, then, will play his harp in peace,
on a world as intended by Heaven,
for every quarrel of Man must cease
and every battle shall be ended."

I again saw the video about the Bialik-school in Tel-Aviv:
Israeli and non-Israeli children from different nations and colors
sing Naomi Shemer's song: At our place in our court-yard.
I sobbed.
In the meanwhile there is also an animated video with this song,
which is not only just as touching, but it's also teaching - the homelands of those nations!
"Everyone who comes home to us has his own way to say "Shalom"
If 576 873 people have seen this video , will this influence evolution?

On Febr. 27, 2013 this video is no longer available,
instead I find a dire parody (2008), which causes me to sob just as much...

7,7

It was Gal's idea to also take our picture together by self-timer.
What we talked the next day- in her father's flat , and with him,
about how to heal an incident between him and me 5 years ago,
and about the wedding of an 18 year old ignorant Bedouin bride,
and about the necessary or possible steps in the Tomer-Drama,
all this deserves, indeed, to be documented at least by this photo.